The Beautiful Day Project
  • Home
  • Blog
  • Podcast
  • Weight Loss from the Soul
  • Free Resources

When This Phase is Over

7/18/2016

2 Comments

 
Picture
Today I looked at Adela's goofy grin as she handed me a toy Brachiosaurus and told God, "Please. I can't play dinosaur queen anymore. I just can't. I am going to go insane." Wearily I danced my dinosaur up Adela's toy castle and pretended to be brushing dinosaur teeth. Again.

​I felt like my eyeballs were about to dry up. Nothing could be so very un-fun as this: making two toy dinosaurs pretend to get ready for bed in a castle over and over and over again. Seriously God, Save me, please.

​It was about that moment that Micaela looked at me and gave me a very loud, angry screech. I set the dinosaur down and walked over to her. My mommy-instincts cringed. I took a deep breath and grabbed a plastic spoon to pry down Micaela's tongue. Oh, no. Doctor time.

​We spent the afternoon on a doctor's visit as we tried to find answers to Micaela super-swollen tonsils. It looks like a virus.

​Sometimes the mommy-life weighs me down. It feels like we lunge from one phase to another. During the newborn phase all we can think about is the day we will get to sleep again. Then we wonder if we will ever be free to socialize when our baby figures out how to crawl, wants to eat everything, needs naps, and it is a chore to leave our safe baby-proofed house. Then there are tantrums and picky eating. We think, "Oh, when they start school..." but they start school and life actually gets more complicated.

​Today, as I held Micaela and waited for blood tests, it occurred to me that we never win this way. We never win looking forward to that next phase.

We have to love this day.

​Yes, that means loving making snoring sound effects for a princess dinosaur and holding a cranky sick toddler. It doesn't matter if it can get worse or better. We don't own the future and yesterday is gone.

​I know it is hard. Believe me, I know.
But just remember, if you are holding your newborn and blinking back weeks of exhaustion; this is the only time in your life that you get to hold your child, so vulnerable, so small, so completely yours before the ideas and opinions creep in and your arms become so much less needed.
If you are tied down by that awkward exploration of your baby, let yourself look in wonder at the thousand discoveries that little one is making today and love that front row seat. 
Tantrums and uneaten food are no fun at all, but at this age they are just as enthusiastic about they things they love as they are passionate about what they refuse. 
And, as you pack that school lunch thank God that your child has teachers and an open world to go into and a loving home to come out of (not all children are blessed in this way).

​This is where we are.

​
Wherever you are today, find the love in it. This is the only day you have. Yesterdays are memories and tomorrow you have no way to own yet. Love today.




2 Comments
Sharon Harris
7/19/2016 09:12:09 am

Even the tantrums and uneaten foods are a way of learning. Stretching out of little toes to feel how this new territory feels. You may be tired of Dinasour breath, but the repetitions represent known ground in a scary all unknown world. Pus Mom is there for security. A place every little girl yearns for. This too will pass ---- and you will miss this too.

Reply
Lora Armendariz
7/20/2016 12:12:15 pm

Thank you for the encouragement, Sharon. I really will miss this, I know.

Reply



Leave a Reply.

    Picture
    Register Today
    Subscribe
    Click on the button above to receive newsletters, weekly encouragement
    and a FREE resources.
    "...and God was already there with me."
    Picture

    The
    ​Beautiful Day Project

    Hello! Thank you for stopping by and peeking in on our life’s adventures. My name is Lora and I love sharing my fascination with discovering all the ways God has made my life beautiful. My handsome husband and I farm, ranch, and find our way as parents of two gorgeous girls including one with multiple-disabilities. Perhaps part of our journey will touch yours and encourage you today. You are welcome here, my friend. 

    Categories

    All
    Body
    Farming
    Heart
    Home
    Marriage
    Mind
    Soul

    Picture

    Archives

    March 2023
    February 2023
    January 2023
    December 2022
    November 2022
    October 2022
    September 2022
    July 2022
    June 2022
    May 2022
    April 2022
    March 2022
    February 2022
    January 2022
    December 2021
    November 2021
    July 2021
    June 2021
    May 2021
    April 2021
    March 2021
    February 2021
    January 2021
    December 2020
    November 2020
    October 2020
    September 2020
    August 2020
    June 2020
    May 2020
    January 2020
    December 2019
    November 2019
    October 2019
    September 2019
    July 2019
    May 2019
    April 2019
    March 2019
    February 2019
    January 2019
    December 2018
    July 2018
    June 2018
    March 2018
    February 2018
    January 2018
    December 2017
    November 2017
    October 2017
    September 2017
    August 2017
    July 2017
    June 2017
    May 2017
    April 2017
    March 2017
    February 2017
    January 2017
    December 2016
    November 2016
    October 2016
    September 2016
    August 2016
    July 2016
    June 2016
    May 2016
    April 2016
    March 2016
    February 2016
    January 2016

    RSS Feed

Thank you for visiting!
Love & BLessings!
​--Lora


Privacy Policy

Terms of Service

Earnings Disclaimer

  • Home
  • Blog
  • Podcast
  • Weight Loss from the Soul
  • Free Resources