Nothing Left of Myself

As mommies, we live a queer balance between having to plan for everything and realize we control nothing. We resign to the fact that we must wear a lot of hats and wear them well. If you are anything like me, you sometimes struggle with a fear of not getting everything done. Or, not having anything left of yourself at the end of the day.

As I began today I could hear God whisper, Stay with Me.

​Today was a normal day, but it was a busy day. Usually Mondays are. Mondays are when I try to get the house back in a semi-clean condition, return the girls to a routine, blog, do paperwork, and balance budgets . Today was normal but it had a lot of extra surprises.

​I did my norm but also mowed, visited my precious Momme Perri (a woman who "adopted" me), went to the post office, helped set up for Vocational Bible School, and saw a dear friend who is visiting the area.

​It was a beautifully full day and that was why God asked me to keep close to Him. I have a horrible habit of getting frustrated when things are out of schedule. I am not spontaneous. I want everything to fit into a plan, fit into a certain order. And, when things wiggle out of my "norm" I get a bit cranky. But not today. Today as each new unusual event occurred I trusted God to take care the rest of my day. I did not allow myself to worry too much about whether or not I would finish chores or have time to talk with friends. I trusted God to allow everything to go smoothly.

​It was a beautiful day.

​Why can't every day be like that? I have cracked down on trying to do too many things at one time, now I need to stop skipping ahead in my day. I need to trust more and plan less. I need to relax and let life happen because it is going to happen anyways. I need to let God wear a few of those hats of mine.

​Funny, it was such a full day. Yet here at the end of it I am so at peace. All of me is still here. I am not battered, spread thin, and used up. I have been filled by the day, not emptied.

​We all have weird days like this. Days that throw us out of our norm and comfort. Give God your planner. Trust Him to give you just enough and just what you need.

Let your day fill you with joy instead of empty you of peace.
​God carefully crafted this day for you and He only gives good things.

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Lift up your eyes to the heavens, and look at the earth beneath; for the heavens vanish like smoke, the earth will wear out like a garment, and they who dwell in it will die in like manner; but my salvation will be forever, and my righteousness will never be dismayed.
​Isaiah 51:6 ESV